GOOD LORD OVER THE PAST WEEK OR SO I HAVE WATCHED 2 ENTIRE SEASONS OF SCRUBS AND IT'S MAKING ME CRAZY. I HAVE THIS ISSUE WHERE I COPY THINGS I SEE OTHER PEOPLE DO. IT'S WHY I SUCK AT ACTING. MIKEY SAYS '____ REALLY NEEDS TO GET LAID' WHENEVER SOMEONE IS DOING SOMETHING STUPID SO NOW I STARTED SAYING THAT.

SO I AM NOW A COMBINATION OF ELLIOT/JD/TURK/DR.COX. LONG ANGRY RANTS + RANDOM OUT LOUD UNCOMFORTABLE THOUGHTS + HIGHPITCHED NEUROTICNESS + RANDOM SINGING OF THE SANFORD AND SON THEME SONG.

Anyways meme because I have no life fuck.

8 things about yourself, tag 8 people, etc.

[1] I'm really superficial and I love stupid celebrity bullshit. I love checking out Perezhilton.com and ONTD when I'm bored. No one knows this and it makes me feel like a tool. I hate myself for it, just like I hate myself because I don't like hip enough bands or movies or books.

[2] I love Fight Club so hard but I don't even own the movie or the book. However I'm pretty sure the main reason I love it is it's basically a gay love story if Chuck Palahniuk wasn't a douche and didn't decide to make Tyler and the Narrator the same person until he was 3/4 the way into writing it.

[3] I rip people off terribly. Their look, what they like, how they draw, how they write, etc etc I'm a big copier I think it's because I hate myself. However whenever it's really obvious it's actually not on purpose. I dyed my hair blue in the summer of 8th grade okay I dye my hair funky colours all the time for shits and giggles so I totally wasn't copying you at all.

[4] I love food a lot. It makes me like a raging fat I have all these baking and cooking blogs in my bookmarks and when cooking I love thinking about all the colours/smells/flavours and how they compliment each other. It makes me want to never eat again and cry about how much I adore everything about cooking. It also makes me feel like a housewife which also makes me selfhating because that is the last type of person I want to be.

[5] I hate myself and my body so much that anything sexual in a tender/loving way scares me so hard. I hang out with my friend Mikey and his girlfriend all the time and whenever they crawl on top of each other or lick each others ears I can just feel my heart start beating faster. IT FUCKING SCARES ME. Even getting physically touched, seeing sex, thinking about sex or anything I just get really scared like a rape victim. I am totally fine by nudity but anything sexual is frightening as fuck I nearly vomited when I read that sex scene between Ruth/Susie and Ray in The Lovely Bones. It scared me almost harder than the rape scene. The only sex I can handle is metaphorical sex, really arty sex, or meaningless movie sex.

[6] I have no idea why I hate myself so much, I don't want to because I know it's not a cool thing to be so down on yourself and I honestly have this naive love of the world but I can't help it. Not a day passes by where i don't want to cut off all my limbs or just be someone else LOL SO GAWTH. Also the internet fucking depresses me because everyone seems to like cooler things than I do and it makes me feel like an even bigger loser than I already am in real life.

[7] I have this feeling that the reason I'm such an outcast is that my friends are too Catholic. I go to a Catholic school and I realized all of my buddies are way too vanilla. If I want to Public School I'd probably have friends because I'm sure someone over there likes Crystal Castles or weird movies or at least isn't completely terrified by them and would be willing to listen/watch/learn about it if I told them of these things' existence.

[8] I hate spending money. It makes me feel like an awful person when I buy things because I'm not spending the money on saving the world, feeding the starving, saving the rain forests, protecting Burmese civilians, etc etc
The guilt is so overwhelming.

I never tag people because IDGAF.

p.s. Possibly going to New York/Long Island this summer but I'm not entirely sure


ALSO GOOD LORD WHY ARE SHREDDIES SO DELICIOUS.