If you have any superpowers, put them into fucking use

Because I am most definitely going to fucking die.

I feel so insanely terrible right now. I have to kill myself. I just have to.

Or I'm just going to quit the internet

kbye

lol my mom thinks it's not fair that i cry SEE THEY DON'T CARE STOP TELLING ME TO TALK TO THEM They just want me to suffer eternally

ETA: IN SOME BRILLIANT ARRANGEMENT OF THE UNIVERSE, THE FOLLOWING WENT DOWN MONDAY MORNING:

Decided to not be a pussy and finally kill myself already jeez, lethaL cocktail of PILLS AND BOOZE SOUNDS BEST

so I swallow a fuckload of pills

I open the fridge so i can drink our bottle of Kahlua

It is gone, there is no booze in the house

So I just felt funny the entire day, and later went to the library and studied avec Katy and Laura

My back-up plan was to buy tranquilizers off of this girl I know because i know she has them BUT SHE WASN'T AT SCHOOL JFC

so hi I have the worst luck ever, I can't even kill myself

Shiiit, maybe I'm just bipolar. I want to live/die. But I have terrible self-esteem right now, so i suppose I just think THERE IS NO POINT TO LIFE BECAUSE I'M UGLY/TALENTLESS/LOSER/AWKWARD/NO FRIENDS/GOD NO ONE LIKES ME/CAN'T GET ANYTHING RIGHT.

is this rambly am I rambling blah blah

P.S. I made delicious cookies two days in a row, fuck why am I only good at making food fml fml

Guys guys I just feel so intensely baaaaad.

I need to apply to college/uni asap but I srsly.. just.. I DON'T KNOW.

I literally can do nothing. Fucking literally. I don't like anything. I NEVER HONED ANY SKILLS.

And I just feel so depressed (LOL IT MUST BE NEWS TO YOU. SRSLY, I NEVER FEEL THIS WAY. WHAT A WELCOME CHANGE IT MUST BE FOR YOU PEOPLE WHO READ THIS GOD KNOWS WHY I APOLOGIZE) and lonely right now. I don't have anyone to talk to and I don't even have any coherant thoughts. I just really want to die. So so bad. It's a yearning feeling. I don't know if you've ever felt like you reallly really needed something, but that is how I feel about ending my existance. I need it, so bad.

I've lost all hope? There really is nothing for me, guys. There is really no way out for me. I can't do anything, I'm an unpleasant person, and I am just disgusting and diseased. I can't believe anyones even ever tried to be nice to me.

Anyways, I just feel like a really need a bat to the head. My fingers itch for it, to be dead. You know? I feel antsy about it, almost as if I have a physical craving to be dead, or maybe to at least not feel so shitty.

I'm so pathetic and confused oh god oh god I hate everything so much.

I regret the past so much too, that is definitely a huge contributing factor to my suicidal feelings. I've fucked up so much, what's the point of continuing on? I've started out badly and nothing will ever get better, I've been fucked from the beginning.

I just.. .I dunno. I hate everyone and everything and myself most of all I REALLY DON'T WANT TO LEAVE THIS WHINEY JOURNAL HERE OH BOO ME WHITE MIDDLE CLASS TEENAGER but I have no friends/no one online wants to talk so I write whiney journals instead.

I really have never had an outlet for my emotions and I've always used this little internet box instead, sorry guys. I know it must be fucking annoying, you probably want to punch me in the face, I'm so sorry, scum of the earth I am.


Happy Holidays.

EVEN THOUGH I'M A LOSER SO WHEN I JUST DO IT I LOOK LAME

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uggh ask me questions I guess.

Or you can take this anonymous oppurtinity to tell me to fuck off or that you secretely hate me or something tee hee



I wished for cinnamon for Snowflake Day, what did you wish for?

p.s. vv busy, thanks guys for being all nice and stuff. )': I'm srsly extremely retarded I don't know why you even try

I have no idea what I want to do. I'm not good at anything. I don't even like anything.

I would absolutely hate to go to any sort of art school. It sounds like absolute shit.

Not to mention I'm not even any good. I'm not creative. I can't draw backgrounds or poses or HANDS or anythiiiing ffff


and I don't know what else I can do oh god I feel so absolutely helpless

FUCK IT'S SO MUCH EASIER TO JUST BE DEAD.

Chemistry: 0%

Math: 34%

Biology 47%

Average: 27%

guys i am such a winner. my life is filled with so much potential and hope right now.


brb slitting my wrists and dying